A little of everything...

The kids painted their pumpkins yesterday and had so much fun! I stripped them down to their diapers and underwear and they hardly got dirty...YAHOO!! The only one to get paint in their hair was Noah...shocking! :) Ryleigh was so good the whole time they were painting. She just sat in her chair she loves so much! I'm posting a picture of Alex from this morning. I was in the kitchen getting breakfast ready when she started whining. I asked Eric what was wrong with her and he tried telling me but I couldn't understand him (speech starts next week). She woke up with a fever and a tummy ache so I thought maybe she was just being cranky. I told her to come into the kitchen and help me get breakfast ready. Eric said she couldn't because she was "stepping on something"...or so I thought that's what he was saying. She gets herself up on things and can't get down so I figured that's what she had done. I went in to see what she was "stepping" on...he was saying "CHOKING". She had her head through the handle of this mesh clothes basket we have and then had it twisted. She was really CHOKING. It was so scary...I could hardly get it off of her and almost ran to get the scissors to cut it off. The picture I took isn't very good but its almost like she has rope burn. The picture was taken 1/2 hour to 45 minutes after it happened. Most of the marks are gone now but there are still some on the side of her neck. I cut the handles off of it so it never happens again. Things happen so fast and I'm just really lucky Eric was here to let me know what was going on. SCARY. Does anyone else ever feel like they are just living day to day...like they are in a fog?? I can't shake it...maybe its from having 3 kids plus Noah?? Maybe its from everything that's been going on lately?? Maybe a mixture of both?? My heart aches. I miss my Lisa and worry about her. I know she has awesome people in Idaho but my heart still hurts. Eric keeps saying "uh-oh mommy's crying again..." and asks me when I'm going to stop crying. I'm just so sad. I feel really alone but I'm busy all the time so I don't know how I have time to feel this way. Something is definitely missing in my life. I don't know what. Maybe SLEEP??
Blah...sorry this was a post about the kids. I really am grateful for all that I have. I complain so much. I really am blessed and have so much.